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| Its been a very long time. I stopped writting on this awhile back after my mother began to read into my life. I started to write a book a few years back and lost my passion for it. Nowadays I'm an closed book and the dust has began to gather on my cover. My life is nothing like it was in 2006. Very few things have remained constant. My friends, family, home, and everything is completely different. In the past few years Ive been content with the direction of my life. In mth past few months things began to change for the worse. I no longer have a sense of self or identity. I lack direction and purpose. What little I do know is that Im not longer the selfish kid I once was. I am no longer the selfcenter child focused on myself and parties. I feel nowadays I should focus more on others in search of finding who I really am. "The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others." - Mahatma Gandi | | |
| Xanga appears to be completely dead. I know nothing more about myself other than the fact that I am content with the direction in which my life is going. I have recently become accepting of the fact that I will probably always be single and will ulitamely never get married. I am my fathers child completely. In the past few months I searched high and low to figure out what was wrong with me and in the mean time I lost focus on what was truely important. My only goals in life are to graduate and take care of my dad in his later years. I know I will never have a family to provide for. Its not being negative its just an unfortuncant fact of life. My personality and my lack of ability to meet new people will forever trap me in my current phase. My childhood friends are all gone and I have nowhere to progress from here, I know nothing but that there is nothing left for me. In my later years I will find myself bound to Aurora and Marshall County and in the end it wont really bother me. I finally found the closure I have searched for for years. Its just a flaw in my design. Lord knows Ive tried. - Corey Grissom | | |
| So I don't do this anymore. Part of the reason is that its never seen and it doesn't inflict the emotion it once did. On other behalfs though I stopped becasue I had to find other means to mend my troubles. Some worked out other simply did not. I'm a better stronger person than I once was, I had a relationship over the summer that end on good turns yet left me with a void. I still haven't filled the void because I find myself alone within the company of my clostest friends. I've been homeless for going on a month now but the experince has made me wiser and its happened for the best. You really don't know what you have until you have nothing. Such a situation will also show your friends. The snakes will show will the grass is cut. However, I resparked a relationship with a childhood friend and found other ways to deal with my troubles and agonish. I hardly drink or go out anymore like I once did. Likewise I hardly ever see childhood friends of my youth and miss everyone one of them I once sharred a strong bond. I currently have a vehcile again and won't neglect those around me. I currently focus on my studies and work and miss a large part of what my life once was. As for now I bust my ass to regain my previous glimmer, fill this void. My goals are simple and clear, pay off car, do good in school, be a sigma chi, move in doors, be happy, fill void. I've also written two books since my relationships ended which I intend to get published. In the end the past 6 months of my life will remind me to never forget. That is the reason I keep my town on my back. - Corey Grissom
Friend Quote - "I never found a problem I couldn't solve with a .45..." - Zach Oswalt
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| Its been awhile. I have a girlfriend of sorts. Im happy. I love my job,
I play rugby from MSU and Lousvilles Mens Team now. I'm content with
everything happening to me. Xanga is dead but I stay alive. Where is
everyone?
Friend Quote - "Sweet Tea, the fine wine of the South!" - Some Fat Guy at Vitellos.
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| Hello...what the hell am I doin' here?
That's a really nice suit,
This is a really comfortable chair.
See, I don't know
If you can help me or not.
'Cause I don't feel sick
I don't feel sick
But the pains in my head
Have almost put me underground.
I don't really care if I am healthy or not.
Just clean my head up, doc
I'll give you anything you want
See, I don't know why I don't fall in love
Well, maybe I know why
And maybe you could make it stop...
We'll cut it up and bury it
And leave it underground.
And I'll take to wishing and fall under
Sleeping safe and sound.
Just give me medicine,
Prescribe me anything.
Just knock me out
And walk me through the door.
Well I have no desire to see
Through my own eyes anymore, anymore, ha, ha, ha.
Hello...what the hell are you doing here?
You made a really strange face,
This is a really uncomfortable air.
I see I'm boring you, maybe I bore myself too.
That's why I need help,
I'm cleaning blood off dusty shelves.
I've been cut up in this room
So many times it might take days.
And those stress cracks in the wood
How nicely they soak up the stains.
Just give me medicine,
Prescribe me anything.
Just knock me out
And walk me through the door.
Well I have no desire to see
Through my own eyes anymore, anymore, ha, ha, ha.
Been telling myself these jokes for so long,
Well so long.
I'm a has-been who is heckled on the stage.
Been telling myself these jokes for so long,
Well so long.
I'm a has-been who is heckled on the stage.
Friend Quote - "Lets go to the shake joint!" - Gary Pitts
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